What a month! Since I last wrote to you, with my “Keep calm and vote on” post, I’ve closed the chapter on working in San Francisco and launched myself into a flurry of activities to purge the woes of our world’s current affairs from my system: healing ceremonies, magnets on my head, massages, listening to frequencies, meditation, hula hooping and other modalities new to me, a few of which I’m sure would have you buckled over in laughter. Some things just require shucking my dignity! I literally feel I’ve grown a half inch taller. Could be that power hooping!
I’ve been working on this thing called “change”, the one thing within me that I’m able to control right now and the one thing I’ve found to be the hardest to do. Certain clients and family members have shared with me, at a certain point along their sessions with me, that “I can’t continue with any more healing. I won’t know how to manage my life if I continue on this path”, even though at the beginning of our sessions they'd stated, "I'll do anything to feel better again!"
I hear you. All too familiar with a few of my own “frozen” patterns, I can be a master-clinger! I confess I can feel like a nut case with a few of these, as I’ve been trying to shed them for over twenty years!
Here’s what I ask myself: How will I contribute to healing the world, offering my own micro efforts, if I can’t help myself? As I investigate and contemplate all that makes me stuck in this space, I came to a little epiphany: the thought that no one can love me like I can, therefore I won’t let anyone in to do so. Onto this though, I pile on my own survival myth: I must do this life on my own, alone, make my business work, make ends meet, and make history, just to prove Jada did it all on her own! Can you feel the fatigue in this? Well, I am over it!
Ultimately what has come out of this time of contemplation and exploration of healing modalities is that I’ve seen how my incremental changes have made a difference. I’ve experienced a richness in energetic shifts that have informed my technique. In turn, this has changed my clients’ interior atmosphere, and together, we’re experiencing what I call “the pace of grace.” So to all of you on the healing path, trust that you’re doing your part right now even if you’re lying on the sofa sobbing, or clinging to the face of Mt. Everest with icepicks!
I share this encouragement as we enter 2017 and leave 2016 behind. Know that the smallest acts of love and kindness are good for you and good for all.
Here’s a great article on 5 Reasons You Might Be Scared of Getting Better from someone who was really suffering:
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I'm on a mission to finding my true self. Letting go of the old identity I've created to find the new. I would love to have you there to witness and to share the experience.